i am gonna be back~

yeah camwhoring is my hobby....

this was taken yesterday in the provinces~ so there there that's me.

oh and this is kewl~~ jae joong and i are wearing the same shirt!!

credits to my forum.. tvfxqworld.cjb.net

random shout outs: HEY KRISTA!! <3333

i am bored.. i need inspiration... *bugs kaijen* i am bored...

wow this is kewl... i am actually updating everyday now weeeee~~!!

ok i am actually in a superb mode right now. i was in the mall and i saw michelle, one of my closest high school friend and then she was like freakin out when she saw me... err well who would be if we havent seen each other for like err 1 year already i pressume)

it went something like this:

michelle: ANA OH MY GOD!!! I CANT BELIEVE THIS T__T

me: *blink* *huggles michelle more*

michelle: i cant believe you.... you're actually wearing make up and mini's *sniffs some more*

me: T__T

michelle: OMG you're kikay na! T__T

awwww it's i miss michelle already..

oh just great i have to cut this short my brother's shooing me away from the pc >_< *glares at evil little bro* so anyway i'll revise this whatsoever

toodles~

i thought this day would rid me off the drama that's going on in my life right now. but all my thoughts are vain because as i was having fun with my friends in the mall then i received an SMS from Ate Tuesday, right then and there i wanted to break down, Ate told me about the current situation at hand. that her brother talked to my aunt dory and their dad about what happened earlier this year, and that they know all the secrets that they've been hiding from them. so i presume that even thou the apologies were said i know that some point in time a new problem would arise.

so why am i feeling a bit worried about it.  it's because i was the one who told Ate Tues about the things that i was told not to tell them. i know my other relatives would be furious about it and i am really sorry for being a part of the cause but please do understand my side... i am so sick of hiding things from them speacially Ate Tues because we're really close and all, and i know she could see right through me. and also i believe that it is their right to know what's going on because we're family and the last reason... i dont want to be suck in the middle of it all once again. i pity myself and my cousins... we are all affected by this long going shit.

let me just clarify that i am not taking sides here. i just want my own peace. that i hope will come sooner or later.

well acctually my meeting with my friends didnt go very well either. it's been a long time since we had last seen each other (it was since last december acctually.) so i guess there are some changes what so ever. i am sure everyone was kinda pissed this afternoon. but anyway we somehow manage to make up for it a little later when we moved to another venue. anyway i am hoping to have a blast with you guys the next gather, eheheh i know we're gonna be prapared!

so i guess that's all for now. i'll see you all in my next update.

whatever happen today is just so mixed up.

i will not go through the details thou, i know my barkada knew about this a long time ago but anyway i've heard the other side of the story. whatever so much for the drama in my family which i am so over. i mean cant they just get everything well by TALKING. damn it i am so tired of hearing backstabbings and complains. how can they resolve it if all they do is that?

now what's the result of that unending conflict? more pain, more sufferings (well for us). cant they see that we (me, siblings and cousins) are stuck in the middle of it? fuck! you see it's hard to choose a side to believe. and they make our lives complicated, cant they just move on and grow up?

i pray that everything will be alright. i pray that they may all find humility onto themselves.

i'll end this here.